よーんなーあっちみそーりよーたい、ふぅ？

  

have you ever seen the flag of bangladesh?

I have.


it is mostly the same as japan`s.
except the color surrounding the sun.

japans` is white and the bangladeshi is green.

yes, we can say those are like siblings or twins.


before noon today, i visited the embassy of bangladesh.

i was worried if they would say OK or not.


i don`t feel closer to the country of muslim
it`s just because i seldom have friends and relatives of the religion.


the lady said i could get tourist visa tomorrow afternoon around 3-4 pm.



i left the embassy and went to platinum area to exchange the currency.
then i moved to central plaza to purchased air ticket.



it cost more expensive than i guessed.

18275 bahts for one night stay i dhaka.

waste of money?

i don`t know.

it is very expensive for just one day and one night.

but i want to see how the things going on there.



i should be very very careful.
i know.


wish me luck.  

i am not sure this was taken from the 2nd visit or not.
i think it was the 2nd.



the room i stayed is a ordinary hotel room.
BUT!

you need to see the pictures very carefully.






did you notice something very unique?



OK, then have a look at it.







isn`t this very thailand?




i like it. so i tried durian for the first time in my life.

it was fresh. so it didn`t smell strong.

still i didn`t love it.
it was OK.

i love sweet and sour fruits, like strawberries, grapes, mangoes and so on.



it was a good try for me.
at least i know the taste and THE SMELL.


they say `you`ll never know until you try.`

that is very true.  

the last year was so tough to me.
a big burden of my life made me feel frustrated too much.


that was the biggest motivation to escape from my reality.
bangkok saved me.


walking in the dark on the street, i enjoy the smell of bangkok.
i came back here again.
i like bangkok so much that i may move to bkk someday.


https://th-th.facebook.com/aryansuites


this is the place i usually stay. and here i am.


tommorrow i will visit embassy of bangladesh in sukumvit
i need tourist visa

wish me luck.  

自然の中にすべてある

それはアントニオ・ガウディの言葉らしい。

私は、その言葉、全く同じ言葉を以前に耳にしたことがある。

松川にあったミューという名のジュエリーショップ。

ミュー。   

昨年まで一緒に働いていたＫさんがバンコクの学校で
日本語を教えているので、彼に連絡をとってみたら

「授業してみませんか」と提案があったので、二つ返事
でやることを決めました。




元同僚。　今、友達？　うん、ご飯も一緒に食べたから友達。





お米のマカロニみたいな麺のランチです。
見えますか？　タイの血～いりち～。

食べ物は、タイよりベトナムの方が私の好みですが。



職員室での一枚。
2900名の生徒がいるマンモス校です。

因みに中１から高3までの6学年が在籍してます。

この職員室は、言語学の職員室。
日本語・中国語・フランス語が選択制の第二外国語で

やっぱり、一番人気は中国語らしい。
先生方もいろんな国の人がいます。

でも、割合はなぜかフィリピン人が多いらしい。




夏の季語を集めたカルタ。
カードのおもてにひらがながあり、うらにその写真や絵

出発前はパタパタしてたので、材料だけ持って出発。
写真をのりで貼ったり、カードを切ったりは現地で。

更に、ラミネートも。
ラミネーターが無いので、アイロンで代用。
原理は一緒です。

あちらして、たっくわーす。

バンコクのアイロンは温度設定が高くて、なかなかうまくいかず。
苦戦して仕上げた手作りのカルタ。

でも、生徒は喜んで遊んでました。

難儀したかい、あった～。


26枚の12ペア分作ったから、時間かかった。



生徒からのこんなメッセージをもらいました。（微笑）
  

i will teach thai high school students japanese.
finally today!

it is the first time to do of course.

i have taught first graders at middle school longer.
so i basically like teaching through using games.

this time i prepared karuta cards for the students.
one side of each card has japanese word in it
and the other side, the photo of the word.

firstly we played the japanese side.
( they make groups of 2 to 3 people)

then i will give them 5 minutes to see
the photos and the words.

then for the second round, they need to pick
a card seeing the photo which i pronounce.

this is the first step


after playing the karuta games, we will have
the winner from the each group.

winner get the right to guess
what do the words related with.

all those 24 japanese words acctually related
with summer, "Natsu".


this is the second step.


at the end, the winners from the each group
tell some short short story about their
summer memories. In Japanese!



the one who could tell the best story can get
japanese "uchiwa" that i got at DaiSo.



I don't know how my plan goes.
wish me luck.


  

i came to bangkok again for the 4th time in my life.
now i stay at the same hotel which is located in suthisaan. the name is aryan.

the owner of this hotel is originally ffom malaysia.

during this visit i will see my old coworker.
he moved to thailand to work as a japanese teacher at a high school.

he suggested to teach for his students.
i am a little excited.

the lesson will be on 18th, this month.
i will write about the lesson later on.

wish me luck!  

i got home yesterday afternoon.
i am now home.

it was so good to me being abroad by myself.

never feeling heavy burden at all.



after writing this i got to go to my workplace to do some for tomorrow.


good grief...   

i will leave here 22:00 for the airport.

before noon im gonna back to platunam in rachaprarop
to buy some pants for me and for my sister as a birthday gift.

i may buy something different for my other siblings.

around noon to be back to asok montri hostel
it gets hot around the time
so i want to take a nap for the afternoon.

after the good sleep i will go to mbk, one of my favorite place.
i need to buy some food and cosmetics as souvenir.


for this visit, i was planning to see my friends and some lady whom my friend
on line.

i called them but i couldnt talk with them.
so later today i will call them again.  

the hostel i stay is owned by a young thai.
the lady at the front desk said he was just 32.

the location is very good.
very close to asok station.

she also say he had been in nagoya
so he could speak japanese.

it is very good for me to know that.
because i am interested in having a condo
in this country.

tomorrow he may come.
i can talk about the thing i want to.

from asok montri hostel
  

night one at 16/19 soi sukhumvit 19 sukhumvit road klongtoey nua wattana bangkok

today early in the mornig, im going to khaosan to exchange my currency.

i was going to stay at this hostel five nights. but i changed my mind.\

i need to move upnorth.

  

ハワイからクリスマス・カードが届いた。


彼女からの手紙に、一度も（ほぼ、一回出したかな）返事を出していない。



こんな人間、どうなの？


太宰治じゃないけど、人間失格かもね。



ダメ人間？




ダメ人間といえば、タイにハマる人は、ダメ人間らしい。（誰かのブログによると）



バンコクにはまっている私。　別に怪しいことをしてるわけじゃない。



本格的に怪しい人は、しっぽを出さないでしょう？



バンコクは



存在しても良い、と思わせてくれる場所。　生産的に生きなくても許容してくれるような気がする場所。



早く退職して、移住したい。




死んだら、チャオプラヤーにでも流してくれたら。　　



門中墓じゃなくても良い。（というか、母の骨を門中墓に納めたことを、私自身は後悔してる）

それを、彼女は望んでいたかな？



今からでも、墓を建てたい。



強烈な痛み止めを投与されて、焼かれたあともピンクやgreenになった母の頭蓋骨。



いつまでも、忘れない。



私もいつかは死ぬけれど、母の骨をあの場所に安置したままで良いのか、今もすっきりしていない。




母自身は、どう思っているんだろう？



性格的に、諦めているのかもしれない。




納得してるのかな？　悔いは残ってないのかな？










  

i started blogging in 2008 i guess.
i am not sure.

the situation around me all changed.

however, i will do the things that should be done.

that is the very clear thing to me.



i have been living by myself.


i mean i was not a merit taker from any men.

i feed by myself.


in okinawan language, "ikiga gakai."


it is like living like sitting on a cozy sofa and doing something.


i was not like that.





























now i am very into bangkok.



when i am in bangkok, i feel it is very ok to be here.



i think one day i will move to this place.




in 29th of dece3mber, i can be back there. i cannot wait to be there i should be.   

i met a tailor lady for the last visit to thailand in jan.

she made some pants for me.

she is a happy go lucky person.

i like her.

i stopped by at her place this time too.

she is an single mom of two daughters.

maybe i will come to see her again someday next year.  

i woke up earlier this morning because this was the first morning here.
taileks house

i went to mbk shopping center and stayed there long.

before mbk i stopped at thong lor.
in the area there are many advertisement in japanese.

walking in the area i often heard some people speaking in japanese



at mbk i purchased souvenir.

i spent over 3000 bahts in one time!!


i need to save the money left. unless i might need to go for a exchange.
i dont want to.


now it is 5:52 pm here in bangkok.

i will go out for walk to night market of hoi kuang (spelling not right)

i will not buy any i just want to see.
  

before like 3 to 5 years, i could enjoy walking long under the strong sunshine.


not anymore.


i didnt want to get sun tanned, so i rented a motorcycle in ayuthaya.



i left at 8:30 from bang sue for ayuthaya, arrived around 9:45.


the sun was up over me.


couldnt have clear idea.


long time passed since i stopped riding a motorcycle.

it was fun feeling breeze


still it was hard for me of age over 40 to stay outside that long.


from 8:30 to 3:35



next time i may stay one night there, not a day trip


and start going out to see the world heritage after 5:00.


now i am back to bangkok and being relaxed at taileks house bkk.  

january this year i took 3 day off for my 20 year working.
adding some more holidays i came to bangkok.

no relatives here.

basically once i visit some place, i don`t want to come visit
the same place.

since i have relatives in brasil, my sister in shanghai
i have visited these two countries several times.

many times to usa becase i had my precious one.

yes, it is bangkok.

this city is very different from other countries.
two visits in one year.

being here, i seldom feel the stress which i feel when i am in a
foreign countries.

i know some reasons.

firstly, japanese and thais believe the same religion.
meaning most of us two buddhists.
( you see some muslim people though)


secondly various kinds of peole are living.
sexually various, racially various and various faces.

in thailand i see many different thais (tribes?)
transgenders
gay couples
lesbian couples.


being among those people i feel very relaxed.





i will move from aryan to tailek`s house tomorrow morning.
planning to go to ayutaya using railway.


suthiisan to bang sue by mrt
bang sue to ayutaya by railway.


on this railway i feel a little scared.
(once i tried )


you cannot see urban thais.
on the train you see local people.


i am sure a very few does speak english.



good luck to me
  

basically i am not the person who loves shopping.
however, in bangkok i come a shopping lover.

especially at chatuchak weekend market.
this place makes me feel easy to get things.
i know what kind i like.
plus i learned from which shopkeeper i should purchase
some are not nice. some are very good.
i felt the good personality.

even though i like some clothes, the shopkeeper has
no good personality, i give to buy from the person.

it is very sorry to miss the chance to get ones i like
still i feel easy to buy or not to buy.

in okinawa and in japan, shop clerks are not rude.


on the way to the hotel from the market, i took a taxi
i don`t know the reason why the taxi driver was angry

i try to be polite but he kept being mad.
so i had to get off from the taxi and take a different one.

this kind of incident rarely happens in my home place.
it is interesting.
  

i arrived at bangkok in the midnight of aug. 11.

i stayed at varee vara on rachawithi soi 21 for 3 nights.

i moved to aryan which i stayed in jan.
and will be at this place till 17th.

third place will be tailek`s house which is located very close
to aryan.
about 5 min walk from here.

i like this area. suthiisan.
10 min walk to the mrt station. transportation is not too good.
but good.

since i am not so fine from yesterday, i visited jim thompson`s house
in the morning. after the visit, i came back to sleep.

jim thompson`s house is one of the places to go.
he is a very interesting person.

  

　２０１２の終わりに、1年6ヶ月我慢し続けていたことをした。

正確に言うと、しかけた。　ちゃんとし終わる前に相手に拒否？された。

　1年6ヶ月我慢していたのは、仕事しづらい環境に変わってしまうのが嫌だったから。

　
ちゃんと最期まで云わせて欲しかったけど、しょうがない。


　仕事場では、ほぼいつもの自分でいられたけど、家に帰ってバスタブに浸かると


気がゆるんで、めそめそしていた。　女みたい。


女だけど。


　前から計画していた旅に出た。



行き先はバンコク。　出発日を間違えて、


飛行機が飛んだ時間には、「明日はバンコクだぁ～」と、ハイネケンを飲みながら


幸せ気分に浸っていた私。　バカ（笑）。


　翌日、eチケットを確認して青ざめた。


急いで旅行代理店に相談したら、冷たい対応。　沖縄ツーリストにたらい回しされた。


沖縄ツーリストの人は、素晴らしかった。


今後、エアチケットはこの男の人から買うことに決めた。


その人にチケットを手配してもらって、翌日出発。


バンコクは暑かった。


どピンク＆メタリックのタクシーが走るバンコク。

人が溢れてるバンコク。


「外国人からはボッてやる！」と云う気が無いバンコクの人たち。


出足の失敗も含めて、バンコクの旅は最高だった。


日本以外の国に住むなら、タイのバンコク。　退職したら、移住しようかな。


外国人は、一戸建ては買えないけど


コンドミニアム（日本で云うマンション）なら買えるらしい。


因みに、今回の旅の目的はショッピング！


私にしては、女みたいな旅の目的だった。　

女だけど。